How I feel

I’m sorry that this a morbid blog but I feel awful right now and I need a place to lay out my feelings. I just want to understand them.

They’re not new, I’ve had them for about 2 years but I’ve had enough of them. Anyone who’s reading, if anyone, because it’s not like anyone reads my blog posts anyway, is probably thinking about leaving but if you stay then thank you. Thank you so much.

I’ve been feeling unwanted. Like no one cares for me. It’s horrible and I hate it so much. It was the reason that I started this blog but considering I get 0 views EVERY single post, then it only made me feel worse. That’s why I took a break from it. No one cares for me on here, I tried so hard to engage with people but that was all in vain, nothing was returned.

I want things to get better but I’m beginning to doubt that they will.

No one from school ever messages me even though I message them. Whilst some peoples phones are always going off with messages, mines completely silent.

I have a best friend but she drives me insane. She’s completely different when she’s with me than when she’s with other people. When she’s with other people she talks quite a bit and makes joke but when with me there’s complete silence. I try so hard to make conversation, things that if I said it to someone else we’d have a proper conversation on. She never makes conversation with me and for me, it’s really boring when there’s just me and her because there’s only me trying. It’s not a phase because it’s been going on for two years. A while ago, her and a friends were out and her friend wanted to walk to her other friend’s house (which is about 5 minutes away from mine). So they went and she didn’t even think to call for me, they’d walked quite a while to go for the other person’s best friend but she didn’t come for me. This just highlighted the difference between us for me, how most best friends would do so much for theirs but mine won’t do hardly anything for me. She always seems to make more effort with everyone else and does nothing for me. We used to be close but not anymore. I try to text her but she, like everyone else, never messages me first. Last year, her, someone else and I were doing a project and I asked if something else could be added to the section that I was doing because I was doing less than the others and I wanted to make sure that I got the best grade that I could. But they talk between themselves (we had a group chat specifically for it!) and decided not to do- WITHOUT telling.

I don’t have as hard as so so many people so I’m so sorry that I’m complaining but I just needed to get this off my chest.

To anyone that has actually decided to read this, I really appreciate it and I hope you know how much it means to me xx

Harry Potter Q and A!

I found this on Quiz Up and thought it would be cool to do it on my blog!

I’ve also just thought of a joke (I’m very proud of it): What was missing from Harry Potter? Voldemort’s nose!

Hehe, shut up, I’m funny.

Source: Pixabay

1. Your favourite book– I know that this sounds boring and not the greatest, but I like all of them! I think they’re all really well written.
2. Your favourite movie– I think I’ll have to go with the same answer as before because although it doesn’t come close to the amazing books, the movies were amazing. Which is very strange because many books that have been turned into movies just..uhh, well suck but the Harry Potter movies have been executed very well and the cast are great for the characters.
3. Favourite female character (why?)– This will have to be Hermione because I love how strong she is, and intelligent. Furthermore, you can relate to her and her struggles which makes me love her even more!
4. Favourite male character (why?)– This is so hard to decide but I think I have to go with Hagrid because he’s just amazing- do I need anymore of an explanation?
5. Least favourite female character (why?)– I think she is probably the most hated person in Harry Potter, and, you guessed it (probably)! Dolores Umbridge! Do I need to explain?
6. Least favourite male character (why?)– I HATE Peter Pettigrew!  He’s just really annoying and there is nothing to like about him and although Voldemort is the main villain, I actually like him!
7. Your house– On Pottermore, I took the quiz and my results were Ravenclaw which I was really happy with because I think that it’s a really strong house and known for being smart which i would definitely like!
8. You favourite defence against the dark arts teacher– Is without a doubt Lupin because he seens really sweet and cool.
9. Your favourite adult character– This is really difficult because there’s Sirius, Dumbledore, Hagrid, The Weasleys and Professor McGonagall. Butttt, I think I’m going to say Hagrid because he’s just amazing! He also called a vicious three headed dog fluffy so…
10. What your favourite subject in Hogwarts would be?– I think care of magical creatures because I love animals and to be able to takr care of such incredible ones would be amazing and make me so happy!

Thank you for reading! I’ll do a part two if this gets 5 views! (I have really low expectations but considering I get 0 views for each post, I’m expecting a lot!).

Toodleloo!

-Sprinkle Of Anonymous